Sometimes I don’t know if I really love myself. I allow people in my life and pretend that I won’t care if they’d leave right away. It’s like saying, “Oh hey. I want you to stay but I’m not saying anything cause i’m acting cool and it’s nothing, right?” When in fact, they actually make me happy and hurt me, as well. I feel like I’m giving them a chance to hurt me just to feel that I’m special even for just a moment. When will the time come that a person wouldn’t just pass by and give me his permanent attention?